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Surviving the Storm

I’m interrupting my personal quilt show to make a brief post about the weather in Texas last week. If you haven’t seen on the news, it was brutal. Record cold, power outages, massive plumbing and water failures, truly epic. This week we are back in the 70’s, a good 10 degrees above the average for this time of year.

I did well at Myrtlewood Farm, better than a lot of people and for that I am profoundly grateful. My plumbing is new, because it’s a new house, so the two taps that did freeze up, eventually thawed out. My water meter froze at the start of all this, but that was dealt with quickly and insulated with a big piece of acrylic fleece. Thank heavens for having a fabric stash with some odd stuff in it.

The time I was without power was weathered with a huge pile of quilts. The cat was instrumental in staying warm, it’s like having a fur covered hot water bottle. She has really been enjoying the bed piled high with 4 quilts, I think she’s going to be very disappointed when I put them all away again. It is times like this I am very glad that I am a quilter, and was able to pile on the blankets.

Next week I will get back to regular posting, but I did want to pause this week, mark the major event of last week, and to be grateful for coming out as well as I did.

About Time I Worked in the Garage

I’ve been out at the farm 15 months now, going on 16 months. Over a year. It’s really difficult to wrap my head around that. I’m coming up to my second Christmas at the farm. At least this year I managed to get Christmas cards out. That was nice.

This entire time the Garage has just been a dumping ground. I was so tired from unpacking the house that I didn’t even touch the boxes in the garage. In August when we cleaned out the house in Albuquerque, I came home with a lot of stuff that again just got dumped in the garage. There was just room for my car to squeeze into the garage.

This past weekend that changed. Everything came out of the garage. Four new shelving units went in and all the boxes from the move got unpacked. That really should have taken up more room in the blog than two lines because it took almost 7 hours to do. I couldn’t move on Sunday I was so tired. I will let the photo be the other 1000 words of this post, I can’t even come close to describing it.

I’m glad I got it done. I can get to my tools again, which means I can finally start work on putting the train up in my office. I’ve wanted to do this for about 13 years, it was going to go in the front room in the other house. I’ll enjoy it more in the office here.

I have never been a neat person, and that has bothered me a lot. More than I like to admit. I have come to realize that it is impossible to be neat when you have too much stuff. Everything needs a place, and where there’s not enough space, you end up being messy no matter what. It soothes my soul to look at the garage now, there’s even a few open shelves so I have some space to put some other things from the house out there. Stuff that wouldn’t fit in the garage before. That’s a first.

So thank you for allowing me to share this topic this week, it’s not sewing but it’s a huge win for me and this year I need all the positive I can get!

Still thankful….

I’ve really thought about what to post this week since it’s Thanksgiving. This is not the first holiday I’ve spent alone, though knowing that a good part of the world alone makes it stand out a bit more. I have some phone calls planned, some zoom time planned and LOTS of sewing planned. I will have more food than I need, honestly but there are a couple of recipes I only make this time of year and I will hold onto those traditions.

I’m working on getting my Christmas decorations out. This year I’m sorting through stuff and trying to be more mindful of what I keep and what I display. I tend to get very excited by shiny things so at Christmas I end up coming home with more than I need. I have to remind myself of that in stores. Maybe just get one or two meaningful pieces this year, but I’m still not sure.

I hope all of you out there are safe, have food and can find a little something for which to be thankful at this holiday, even if it is not how you normally celebrate. I’m reminding myself that even with everything going on, I am still thankful for what I have.

The Power of Habits

Habits are an interesting beast. They sneak up on us over time. With many habits, we don’t consciously set out to make them, they just happen. As the days pass and as we go about our lives, we set patterns. Like anything in life, habits can become either a force for good or a force for bad, it’s up to us to decide. I think we are all familiar with how difficult it is to change a bad habit.

I read an interesting book last year called Habit Stacking by S. J. Scott. It puts forward the premise that you can build on existing good habits by adding little things to existing routines. You evaluate how you do things, then you start adding to those existing patterns. I’ve tried this method and have had some moderate success in making changes.

The last five months, I’ve been putting down some serious habits. Habits about being at home all the time. Habits about having my weekends not eaten up by outside commitments. I didn’t realize how powerful those habits were becoming. This past week, I drove to Albuquerque to clean out my parents house, and I lost two whole weekends to the process. I feel like the flow in my sewing room has been completely severed. It hasn’t. I know that but it was a pretty big change after being home for 5 months.

I kept saying that I want to keep some of my weekends for sewing when life gets back to some semblance of normal, and August has driven that fact home for me. I’m already looking forward to this weekend, and the list of things I want to work on around here. Time management seems to be even more important now, and I need to incorporate some new habits that support the kind of time management I want to have in my life. The last five months, I’ve been making new habits without having any kind of plan to them. The time has come to be more mindful about those habits and have a plan.

A Longing for Fall….

I am a cool weather gal. For a lot of reasons, not the least of which is that I am prone to heat stroke. Other than that, most of the things I enjoy in life are compatible with cool or cold weather. I’m thinking a fire in the fireplace, a cozy sweater, a cup of anything hot (cocoa, coffee, you name it), hand knit socks, all of these are things that are not compatible with temps over 95 degrees. I suffer my way through the summer, spending very little time outside, counting the days until fall arrives.

Last week, we had a summer cold front in Texas, which means the temps were in the upper 80s/lower 90s most of the week. Going outside with Pops in the morning, the breeze was cool rather than being a blast of hot air and it was a hit of fall. I know Texas Summers go through at least the end of September, but it was just a brief reminder of cooler weather and a promise of what is right around the corner.

This will be my second fall at the farm and I’m very excited. There will be a back patio this year with a fire pit for sitting outside and roasting marshmallows in the cool evenings. I will be able to step out the back door without stepping into a giant mud pit when it rains. All very exciting things.

At the same time, I’m eyeballing more of my knitting projects. Knitting tends to get put down in my house during the summer for other activities. I just can’t bring myself to knit much when it’s 110 degrees outside. Just doesn’t fit. So I need to figure out where I left off and get things lined up for when cooler weather arrives.

I can just feel the cool breeze on my face and not dread being outside to do yard work.

What One Year Brings

It is coming up on the one year anniversary of moving out to the farm. A whole year. Milestones like this make me look at the passing of time and what all has happened. This time last year I was still frantically packing my house and I had started to move the kitchen myself. This time two years ago I wasn’t sure I was ready to build yet. This time 9 years ago, I wanted to buy property in the country but hadn’t found anything yet.

I have to remind myself often, that the dreams I have don’t come to fruition over night. They have to be tended and worked, sometimes for years, before the big payoff. This has always been difficult for me. I need to see results right away or I get discouraged easily. It is a mark to how big a dream this was, that I stuck with anything for 9 years to the point where things actually happened.

This house and tiny farm is so much more than just a house. This is visible proof to me that I can accomplish things. That even when it seems like nothing is happening, the dream is still viable. That I need to have patience as I go about things in my life.

Last year when I moved in, the back yard was just a vast mud pit. It is not much better this year because I had to regrade the east side of the house so they took a lot of dirt from the back yard, so mud pit yet again. I have had a plan for a back patio since I moved in and I’m finally starting on it. This house is going to be a work in progress for a while I think, I can’t do everything all at once. That’s another good lesson in life, sometimes we can’t do it all at once; have to plan it out and tackle one piece at a time.

August 16, will be a year to the day since I moved. I have a front flower garden, and the yard in the front is mostly green stuff. Not all grass but that’s fine, if it’s green, I mow it anyway. Next year the back yard will be more sorted out and I’ll be on to the next project. Have some ideas for some stuff in the house too. You know, because I don’t have enough to do.

Just keep reminding myself that Rome wasn’t built in a day and neither are my dreams.

When things get stale, it’s time to make a change

We’ve all been there. Stuff is rolling along just fine then one day you wake up and find that you are rolling in a rut. Rolling in a rut goes on for a little while but it gets more and more difficult to role and then you wake up one day and things are stalled, just stale, not going anywhere. When that happens its time for a change.

I have at least learned, for me anyway, that bangs are never the answer. Many bad hair cuts and many hack jobs on my bangs, no that is not the kind of change that is going to help. I’ve also learned that spending a lot of money in and of itself, is not going to bring the change needed. Spending a little money to help support change is something else but that’s for a later discussion.

I’ve admitted that I’ve been writing solid every week and I’m running out of fresh ideas. I’m feeling stale. I can’t even get a post scheduled for Monday morning anymore. I wake up Mondays now, completely shocked that it is Monday, and how did it get to be Monday anyway, without any warning. There really should be a pattern or something you know, to make sure that you know when Monday is going to come around. Yea. Nifty idea. So I need to make some changes.

I like writing weekly. I’ll skip all the gory details about reader engagement and reach etc about social media, but TV figured out long ago that people like a weekly pattern and will tune in weekly to watch a TV show. Blogs honestly aren’t much different. If you get the hang of reading my blog along with your morning coffee on a particular day, then you (hopefully) look forward to that happening on a weekly basis. I promise I’ll come up with some new stuff. Really I will. With that in mind, I am now officially moving from Monday to Wednesday Post Day up on the blog.

I know that’s not going to be enough in and of itself to get over the writers block, but I am hoping I won’t be quite as surprised about Wednesday as I have been about Mondays of late. Time will tell on that one. I’m also making some changes in what and how I’m sewing. I’ve got two quilts to bind, and I’m actually hand finishing the binding instead of machine finishing. I think I can count on one hand the number of quilts that I have hand bound in the last 5 years. Both of these quilts were also pieced in the last 9 months too. Me? Finishing something in under a year? That’s a big change too.

I know I’ll have to build some new patterns around these ideas, and I know they really aren’t anything revolutionary. Inventing my own calendar that has 13 days per week and 28 weeks per year would be revolutionary. I would have a 4 day weekend every week. I’d also get to make up 6 more names for days. Blursday has been a particular favorite lately, I’m fairly sure that’s always the first work day after a 4 day weekend, but I digress. I’m doing little things that will shake up the routine and get me out of my stale rut and back on the road again.

If you are reading this with your morning coffee, it’s Wednesday and you are welcome. Unless you took Monday and Tuesday off in which case it is Blursday and you are still welcome.

Momentum, or lack there of

A lot has been going on in our world lately. I don’t write about it too much here because that’s not what this blog is about. This is supposed to be an outlet for my creativity, and a way to help me find my path with needlework and grow by managing some of my goals. That has been particularly difficult to do lately.

I have found myself very challenged to keep creating. This week especially, I work through the day and when I get to the end of the day there’s nothing left in the tank. I sew a little, I’ve been knitting a bit more as that seems to suit me sitting in my big chair more. I don’t like myself this way but I need to remind myself that it won’t go on for ever. I need to allow myself this time to evaluate, and regroup and even rest.

This won’t be a long post. There’s too much to say that’s a jumble of emotions and things that I don’t want on this page. I know the human race is remarkable and resilient and we will find a way through this, and make the world a better place. I will keep sewing and trying to make myself a better person every day.

Need some new habits

This week is week 10 of the stay at home directives. I don’t like to use quarantine because it’s not, and words matter. When this all started, none of us really knew how long we would be doing this. I am lucky in that I have worked from home a lot before so I have a good setup here and at work it has been easy to make the transition. The rest of things, not so much.

This blog is a good example. I used to plan out the topics I would discuss and have things rolling forward, always about a month out. Now I’m writing Monday morning at 6:30. It’s getting a more accurate view of where things are at that moment in time, but it’s leaving me feeling rushed. My creativity is strained, but I guess that makes sense, stress doesn’t necessarily support the creative mind, and there’s plenty of stress right now.

I was thinking about things last night, and I realized that most of the habits I have are built around a life on the go. Now that my life is centered at home, I’ve let all of those other habits slip away, and I’m drifting. So I need to rectify that.

That means this week, I’m going to sit down, dust off my planner (I mean seriously when was the last time I looked at my planner) and make a plan for several things. Make new habits for the things that I want to get done. I know it’s not just going to come flowing out of me, but I know if I put pen to paper, I can get a better view of things. Pen to paper allows my brain to function differently than working on a computer does and I think that is going to help.

So please excuse another Monday 6:30 am post, next week will be better.

Almost Summer

This weekend is the first weekend of May, but in North Texas, we got into the upper 80’s to low 90’s both days for temp and Spring is in the rear view mirror with Summer looming around the corner.

I have officially hit the time of year where I have to mow every weekend, and all the associated yard work that goes along with stuff being in full swing. That includes my butterfly garden in front of the house. As gardens go, out in the country, it is a very modest garden, but for me it’s the biggest thing I’ve ever tried to keep going.

The original plants came in a curated box from Texas A&M University, all of which are perennials, that don’t mind the heat of a Texas summer, and have blooms that are attractive to the Monarch butterfly. I put the box in last September and I’m happy to say over 60% of the plants survived the winter, and my weeding attempts when stuff was still so small it was hard to tell what was weed and what was plant. There are still somethings out there that I haven’t pulled up because I can’t decide if they should be there or not.

This weekend I went to the effort to add 5 more plants to fill in the spots where stuff from last year didn’t make it. A lot of time was also spent pulling up the Bermuda grass that seems determined to invade the bed. I want it to grow in the yard but it wants to grow right up by the house first instead. I don’t get that. Maybe I should *want* it to grow in the bed so that i won’t do that. Kinda reverse garden psychology.

I noticed today as I was working that the yard is a wonderful palette of summer colors. The blooms in the garden are red, white, blue and yellow, with wonderful green foliage. So full of summer life. The quilt I’m currently working on is mostly red, white and blue too, so it echoes those colors nicely. Some of the plants are tall enough now that I can see them through the window when I’m sitting in the living room. While I was working I even saw a couple of butterflies so I guess the garden is appealing enough for them.

I have been using the time during this stay at home stuff to make sure the yard keeps looking nice, and I will have to figure out how to keep it going once a little bit more of the usual pace comes back, but I have noticed that I find riding the lawn mower is its own kind of relaxation with the freshly mowed lawn a very tangible reward, and the colors in the garden are just as rewarding as the colors in a quilt I have pieced. I keep saying I need to figure out how to keep this pace of life when everything returns to ‘normal’ and. I know that to keep the garden up I will have to do that. I’ll figure it out but in the mean time, I am sipping a glass of iced tea as I survey my progress from inside and I like what I see. All of it.